Why wont any new words come out?
Have I already said every word that I will speak?
I just want to have new words leave my lips
And not complain about how they wont
I want to be able to express these cursed emotions
Instead of just feeling them
As of now I am stuck feeling them all
Without any ability to form them into language
It feels like I am stranded alone on an island
Left to die with no one to relate
Having all these feelings eat me alive
So that they can find the will to survive
I want to speak these feelings
I want to let them all go
And let them loose like wild dogs
And let them chase the hearts of those who listen
Instead of me
I’m getting tired of running
From the same damn thing
Not able to take control it anymore
All I had was the ability to let the feelings flow out past my teeth
But now, that’s on hold
As long as they are all stuck in my head,
They all remain in my heart
I just have one dream right now
And that’s to have someone tell me that they feel that same shit too
But honestly i’ll take someone who’s just willing to listen
And right now,
No one can listen
I’m just stuck having these feeling echo and bounce off walls in my soul
Forcing me to believe that it is all empty inside
I know it’s not,
Or at least I think it’s not
But that’s getting harder and harder to believe
I have the same things being shouted out to me
Being shouted out by me
With no defense from me
I don’t know what to think
And i sure as hell don’t know what to say
All i know is that I am feeling every damn emotion
with every one of them mixing in together
Only Having my tears be the proof
I don’t know what to say or even how to say it
Im just stuck.
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original by me