Wednesday, June 5, 2019

morning pages revelation

On most days I sit down for 15 uninterrupted minutes and I write. I write three pages of longhand writing without any breaks. The things that I have discovered through it have been amazing. I have only been doing this officially since the end of January, and the pages have been poured over by emotion and thoughts that I did not think mattered to me anymore. 

While writing my pages today I came across a thought that I already knew was important but was neglecting. Now I need to take action. 
The idea of I need to save up money came up, and I was thinking of all the reasons why I should at least focus this week and next on a no spend period. I was breaking down the reasons why I should be doing this, and here are those reasons:
  1. money. I, unfortunately, act like I have more money to spend than I actually do. I should be saving as much as I can, not spending everything as soon as I get it. [I have money problems] I have previously tried a "no spend month," but I ultimately gave up. I really want to try for this. 
  2. consumerism. I put too much importance on what I own. I want to own my things and truly embrace my space, not have my things own me and my space. This whole culture of buying things in order to make yourself happier and life easier is something that I have been trying to fight against but do lose against more times than I am proud of. 
  3. the planet. This planet is already polluted with trash from all of these things that I have bought and tossed aside. No matter how hard I try to stay away from plastic and single uses I know the thing I spend the most money on is fast food, which is bad not only for this planet but also my wallet and my body. 
Thinking about all of these factors puts into perspective on what I am out my hard earned money towards. Are these things worth the repercussions that they come with? Can I really say that I am aiming towards the low waste lifestyle if I really don't make any changes to get to it?

These pages have helped me to see that I want to make a change in this world and I want to tell the world to do the same, but I am not really doing anything to really make those things happen. I have to make a change now, versus just sitting on the sidelines. I have made some changes, but it is now to take some bigger steps. 

I just want to say thank you to a YouTuber Shelbizleee. Her videos inspire me so much to go out and make the changes in myself and others to help this world out. 

Here is a link to her channel, I most definitely recommend giving it a look at:
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