caring wayyyyy too much

Something has been eating at me lately and I can't keep this inside anymore. I know that at times I come off as confident and someone who knows who she is. But there is a truth that lies beyond the outward image I have presented.

I have something to say. 

I CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF ME!

There I said it.

needing something

There are a lot of things that I believe would do me good. The two main things that would affect me the most are creativity motivation. Think about that.

I can't even remember the last time I posted on here. (I know I can just look at the time stamps, but it's mainly for dramatic purposes.) There was a time when I felt like I was doing good. I was able to sit down and let words come out of my mind enough to create entire posts. Now I am sitting in the same spots, deciding to rearrange the whole function of my room just to avoid staring at a blank screen any longer. Is that bad?