keeping it going

It's time for a recap!

Where am I in my life right now? Currently stressed, but honestly so blessed to be able to have this kind of stress on my shoulders. I am taking the maximum amount of hours possible for a semester and this was by accident. But it's super chill cuz I can totally keep my head above water.

Or so I am telling myself!

finally i did something

For so long I have been looking at blank pages and feeling the intimidation of what I could never accomplish. I know I have been holding myself back with all these "what if's," I'm done with telling myself I can't do a good enough job. Here I am to say that I can do good, that what I create is valid. I am here to show the world the mess that I can make. There is something beautiful in allowing the soul to proceed as it will.

if i keep turning a new leaf, i'm gonna run out of leaves

I constantly tell myself pep talks, convince myself to get into some new habit or to pursue "something I've always wanted to," but it gets to the point of running in so many directions at once that results are noticeable. There aren't any. I have to stop restarting myself and my progress. I have to let myself to continue to make progress without and limit or minimums.

I have to let myself grow at the pace I am, not what I think I should. 

This one is going to be short but it's something.