Here I am at my desk with a blanket over my legs, feeling like a comfy old man, and loving this feeling. A few moments ago I got the urge to do something creative. I didn't know what to do, so I opened up my journal and pulled out some markers and let some creativity plop onto the pages, felt great, but I still wanted to do more, so I did something very scary and that was to film myself and post it on YouTube. I can't believe that I even posted that... But hey I did it, no going back now.
My point is that if I would have just ignored that feeling, I would have empty boring pages but now I have some cool pages that I am truly proud of, and instead of saying that I want to post a video on YouTube, I can now say that I have posted a video on YouTube. I think that is freaking awesome!!
I didn't post anything amazing but see that doesn't matter. What matters is that I didn't tell myself no. I didn't tell myself to hold back. I let my heart lead the way, and honestly, I am so happy with that.
A secret goal of mine was to post four times on this blog for this month to finish this year off strong. I wasn't sure if I was going to do it because I wasn't sure if I would be able to. Can I really sit myself down two more times to do this? Am I going to carve time out to do that? I doubt it.
But you know what I have to say to you loud and doubting voice? FUCK YOU!!
I can do it and I am going to do it! I felt the need to post here and guess what, I am sitting down at my desk, feeling like a comfy elderly person and writing about how great it is to go with your creative heart.
Thank you, heart, for getting me to do the things I love to do. Thank you, heart, for letting me have something that I am so proud of. I am truly so happy and I know I should be asleep at 1am but damn, I couldn't let this stay in anymore.
I know I am going to sleep in until 12 tomorrow... damn...
GOODNIGHT!