I am dedicating myself to post on Sundays what I did to keep good to my promise. I have made this promise to myself a little while ago and thought about posting stuff for it but never did. I guess might as well do it now.
Here's what scared me this week:
Sunday: Spent the night at my Big Grandma's (great grandma) place. I was scared to do this because despite wanting to go over and spend time with her, I was afraid that we wouldn't have anything to talk about. Most of the night we just sat there and watched movies, which is both of our favorite thing to do. I am happy I did that.
Monday: As stupid as it sounds, I bought something that was little and small that I knew my grandma was going to scold me for buying. It was scented washi tape. She surprisingly didn't say anything to me about it. So I was scared for no reason
Tuesday: I went to the beach with my friends in the morning, and despite the surf advisory warnings, I went all the way in. I know that it doesn't sound like that big of a deal but the waves were crazy and unpredictable and on the news, people were told to not go in past your knees. But you know what?!?! I love the ocean so went all the way in.
Wednesday: As soon as something goes wrong, I need to freak out and try to get things back into place. Something happened and instead of going bananas and trying to micromanage everything that was happening, I put what I wanted aside and focused on the person I was with to keep them calm and to be optimistic for them. That was a lot harder than it is supposed to be because of everything I was freaking out about in my head.
Thursday: When you have a falling out with someone you usually want nothing to do with them until you are ready to deal with them. That is what I wanted. I wanted to take my time and not see this person and be okay. But instead of sheltering myself I decided that there was nothing to shelter from. I had to tell myself, "I am not hurt by them or what they did. I am upset by what they reminded me of: past pain." So I went and did what I wanted to. And I never even saw them. I was holding myself back for what? It was an amazing night.
Friday: I asked my boss if I could get discounted pillows. I know this is stupid but with all the terms and conditions going on with those pillows I asked anyway. It kind of was a little serious but I decided to grow some balls and ask if I could buy discounted pillows. *spoiler alert* they weren't marked down as far as I would have hoped.
Saturday: I went to a family party and had a blast but I invited my boyfriend to come. He wasn't able to come until after he got out of work at 9:30 pm but he still came anyway. I introduced him to my family we had a blast playing with my little cousins playing in the pool for a good 3 hours.
Those are the things that I did to scare myself like I said before, some were big and some were small but all were something that pushed me.
-Thanks from Layla Drew