So, this is not going to be a big deal to anyone but me, but still is a change! The name of this blog was "Best Version of Myself." I called it that because this was supposed to be a way for me to get to the best version of myself. It's pretty self-explanatory, and that's what I wanted. I wanted this blog to be a constant reminder of what I am going for in life. I really do want to be the best version of me to exist, and I am always running to that person, but I feel like that title is not what I want this blog to be.
I feel like I went from having this image of myself in my head of who I want to be. I have always had an idea of what I want to become and that is always been ever changing, but recently my view of that has had a drastic change. I was trying so hard to run to that idea, that daydream of what I should be. I was running so hard that I ended up bumping into every wall possible. I was hurting myself more than I was helping myself. I wanted to change that all.
I wanted to change the title of my blog because it just felt like it was time. First of all, the title didn't even match the URL of it. I have come to the realization that becoming my best self isn't the main idea that I am headed towards. I know that "becoming your best self" and "constantly improving" are on the same street, but different lane.
To me, "becoming my best self" is having this dream of who I desperately want to be. It was a hard expectation that got to the point that I did not think I could reach. This has turned into me creating a visual trail to the make-believe person. This wasn't what I wanted anymore. I needed to turn it around and make this something that I actually wanted, nay! I needed to make this blog into something that I needed!!
"Constantly improving" leaves so much room for just that, IMPROVEMENT!! I decided to change the direction of this blog from a destination blog [destanation as in who I want to be] and switching it into the actual journey. I am glad that my focus is finally changing into something that not only feels healthier for me but genuinely makes me happy about it.
I know I keep writing it, but honestly, I have so many plans for myself and this blog, and I can't wait to document all of the change that I am getting ready to go through. I am coming back to a place where it doesn't matter when I post or what I post on here, or even how many views I get on a single post. I am realizing the worth in my own words, and being happy with what I allow myself to put out there into the world. The world is already scary enough without us censoring and blocking ourselves.
Here's to letting me be me and letting my heart run wild with all of the words that are about to make a change within myself.
This blog isn't about striving to find the perfect me anymore, this blog is now about me finding the not so perfect parts of me and working from there. There is so much that I know I can be and am so excited for all of that to unfold from itself.
BRING ON THE CHANGE