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I can not believe the amount of attention Olivia Rodrigo is getting off of her new song. I think it is wikd with the amounf of turnout she was able to get for it. At first I had no clue what all of the hype was about. Was it a good song? Yes, that can not be denied. Was there an interesting story behind it? Kind of. 

Now let me tell you why. It's just about getting her heart broken. That is something that happens to everyone. Even her idol, Taylor Swift, who is known for writing songs about that. But that just proves how good her writing was. not only was she able to take a relatable story and turn it into a catchy tune, but she was able to take this experiece of heartbreak, take something specific from it and turn it into something beautiful.

Listening to her sing that song there are many lyrics that stick out to me personally. I remember being in high school and going through the same situation as her. My boyfriend broke broke up with me because I was "too young" for him, but then went around and dated a blonde girl who made me insecure. Looking back, so much was blown out of control from mistakes and rumors being taken too seriously. 

This song helped me look back at my old drama and pain and realize, I needed that to grow up. That experience was not wanted but it helped me find parts of myself I didn't acknowledge for what they were. 

After that time, I learned to write through pain. I learned what beauty journaling was in my life. I was able to actual use this newfound hobby to work something out instead of just causally using every now and again. 

Looking back at everything that happened, I realize that I was better off without him. He was mean and made me feel like I was not worth his time. I remember, as his girlfriend, I had to beg him to spend time with me. I deserved more. I am happy that it was as short lived as it was. 

So thank you Olivia, you helped me realize that high school me deserved better. I work everyday to give myself the love and attention I need. I found someone who shows me how much I matter to them everyday. High school Layla would be proud. I know I am of all the progress I've made for myself.