working towards your goal

Earlier today I was looking through my Pinterest feed and found a list called "30 Things to Start Doing for Yourself." I immediately needed to check it out. I read through the list and even the blog post. I really liked it and really thought about each of the things they listed.

I feel like I do, or at least have started doing a lot of these things recently. With me working towards this "new me," I honestly feel ahead of the game when it comes to starting new things. As I read and re-read and absorbed the article I kept thinking, am I really doing these things? Have I really been consciously making an effort to do all of these? And for the most part, I say yes I have. Even now as I'm reading the list, I am thinking of examples and ways that I have been incorporating into my life. 

For instance, "#11 giving your ideas and dreams a chance," the biggest thing that I have done in my own eyes is publicly sharing this blog on more than one platform. That to me is maybe the scariest thing I have ever done. 

But when I was reading through I found one that I wasn't quite sure I was doing. The one that really caught me off guard was #24 "working towards my goal every single day." Now I automatically think about every exception possible and wonder if these apply, like what if I have a lazy day and do nothing, or I work all day and am so tired I just went home and slept. And after thinking all of these over I was brought to a new question: what is my goal? It's to be the best version of me, duh. But what does that look like? Who is that best version? Who is she? This is where I got dumbfounded. 

A while back I figured I figured something like this would happen to me so I made several lists, that went in depth on this person. Even looking back on those I am still stuck. Am I working towards this person every day? Is the person I am now progress from who I was, or has she had too many setbacks? 

I feel that I am better from who I used to be. I have been doing my best to forgive those who have hurt and broke me. I have been constantly reminding myself that my self-happiness is always important. I am learning every day how to put my pride aside and put others above it. 

I might not be making the biggest changes, but I know me, and I know that I am doing my best to be the best version of myself. 

Sincerely Me,

(then and now) Love Layla Drew

Here is the post where I found the list, feel free to check it out.

http://www.marcandangel.com/2011/12/18/30-things-to-start-doing-for-yourself/?epik=0c-rkE_IWX691